I don't want to go outside anymore, I'd rather stay inside until my skin turns pale. I don't want to talk to anybody anymore, my communication is slower than the mail. I don't eat the same food that I used to eat, I'm going hungry everyday forever. I don't want to look in the mirror again my self esteem has appeared so severed. I felt so bad once Dusty Rhodes pass, how long in life can the American dream last? I feel convinced that I am forever alone, I don't mind over thinking over a personal bowl. Just because it's my location doesn't meant it's my home, I got a teen mindset like I forgot how to grow. I just want to smoke my memories out of my brain, My main girl like Carly Simon got me feeling so vein, but, really I'm just self absorbed with self loathing, my name is GED, but, I'm really not knowing - my own identity. This is a realization, how will my appearance appear to the nation? I told you Id take my life but, my fam is preventing me. I can't just take my life, I'm history. I hate my life, but, I love my fam. I'm not so sure on just who I am. Girls don't love me like they use to, I guess I'll sit silently like I'm used to. They look into my eyes and see a nobody, I used to think I'm somebody, but, I'm nobody. Life is a job I wish I had the ash to quit, but you know you got to stick around for your kids. Times like this I wish I was an abortion, If I was not alive life would be fortunate.

What the fuck kind of world am I living in? I can't be cool anymore I'm ignorant. Fuck the bullshit life, I'm not into it, foreign reality got me feeling like an immigrant. Thinking normally about the everyday life how to adjust remaining with my pride. Follow the rules and play on the safe side. Life is a screech, I'm about to move to Bayside. years ago playing Devil May Cry: never had to worry about my present or my future life. Dwelling in the past searching for a resolution, how am I alive? (Fuck) How am I doing shit? (Hmm) I guess I'll never know, nowadays the fam got my back and I'm back to making dough. Future is as bright as I want it to be. Like Death Cab; this is sthe sound of settling...

Settling~ (X3)
Like Death Cab; this is the sound of settling.~
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Nowadays I like to be alone, nowadays I never leave my home. I don't spend my life on google chrome, I don't even answer my phone.
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