Looking down cause I'm in the air levitating, and this whole situation by itself is devastating, flying high yet my whole I've been hesitating, I've been poor for so long (yeah) I've been hella patient. I cant wait to see that twenty dollar bill. The feeling of having money will be so surreal. I remember back in the days when I had to steal, nowadays I look back at the guilt I gotta feel. To be honest: I'm not an honest person. The lies I speak a day can make an average saint nervous. I don't know why I do it, but I do it on purpose. Its a deep whole I dig up, my future looks so unnerving. I'm learning things about myself I wish I didn't discover, A lot of past regrets remain uncovered. Enough of my skeletons they parade my closet reminding me about the things from the past that's forever dividing me - Mentally and Physically, I may go ballistic. M true state of reality is so sadistic; I want to kill myself, but, I'm afraid to do it, I look at what I got with my family, I'm not going to lose it.
...And they don't want you to go~
...So why take your life like this?~
...We don't want you to go~
...So why you take your life like this?~
(Repeat)
I find familiarity in loneliness.
A tendency to be
Not just what you see
But so much in between
I see what you've shown us
Little time for care
Find complacency
Inside of me
I see how you've owned us
A dominant hand
On this cosmic strand
You seem to understand
Just how I feel
A closed book open to your mind
A broken heart repaired just in time
But just like that it's over
Inevitability in its finest hour
How could we ever even if we could
The lights have gone
I am fearless now
(I am fearless now)
credits
from Negative,
released June 22, 2016
GED - Lyrics, Recording, Vocals.
DJ R Dog - Production, Lyrics.
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